Wow. Senioritis is finally hitting me. I don't want to do the econ extra credit. I currently have a 99% in that class, if I do the extra credit which (total) is 100 pts, I'd probably get a some hundred something percent. Answer 4 questions, two page each, each worth 25 pts. Ugh. I so don't want to do it. Hmm.. maybe I will... tomorrow.
Well, guess what? My sore throat is gone! yay! I think it disappeared after I ate Flinstone Gummy Vitamins. LOL. But now, I have a HUGE throbbing headache, and I feel like throwing up. Not much of an improvement from the sore throat is it? Ah well.
I'm currently sitting in front of my laptop, typing and staring outside the window at the gloomy weather. I love this weather, but I thinks it's the weather that is making my head throb so much. I don't know why/how. Ugh.
This is going to be a random thought. I wish that sometimes I made the right choice. I sometimes feel like I make wrong choices and it leads me to unhappiness. I don't feel ready to say what specifically yet, but I just know that sometimes, I wish I chose differently or know what to choose. It's so frustrating when you make a wrong decision. Like a friend or a job, life seems so empty if you make that wrong decision. I don't know. I'm blabbling. But yeah, uh. I wish I made right choices. Sure, there will be happy times, but during the sad times, what happens if there isn't anybody there for you? You think you're part of this big group and everyone likes you (or not) yet when you’re in the most troubled times, they throw you away because you're no benefit to them anymore. I'm not saying this for myself, but to everyone (sorta). You think you're loved, but when your in trouble or just want some attention, they walk away from you, and you think "why were we friends?" Haha. wow, i don't know what i'm talking about.
Well, it's just that I notice these things happening around, and I, at times, attempt to fix it. I see people who are left alone and being quiet, so I try to make them happy. But like the things I do... go bad. And sometimes in the end, I get annoyed/sad (not to mention tired) to see that I said something wrong or something else happens, and they may take advantage of me? Ugh. See why I fail writing? I can’t get my thoughts straight. Maybe it’s because I’m not saying the things I actually want to say bluntly. So anyways, I try to be nice and all, but I think nice can take you so far.
Haha, look at my trivial blabs. So, my basic message is not that I should make the right decisions (which I should), but the basic message is to be a good friend? When you see someone sitting alone or not talking when he/she is in your "group," don't block him/her out. Include them in your convo. Though I'm capable to be a loner, not everyone else is. I think you'll get a vibe if someone wants to be a loner, though. Um, so overall, be a good friend yeah? Okay, I think I’ll end this here…
Btw, no one really should really pay attention to my random talks, but it’d be nice if someone did… if they understood it that is…